Your Abbreviation is My Horizon

Debby J Tumanduk
3 min readApr 24, 2022
Photo by Debby J Tumanduk

Here, I am on this ship
I am sailing with my agony far from your shade
Does fate mean anything to us?

Every wave in this sea, I can hear you
Every tide of this ocean, I call you
All the way I sail, I reach you.

On every rock, I cross, I reminisce about you
In every harbor my ship has moored, I see you
Your name is my compass upon which my destination should end
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Between the ocean and the sky, there is a horizon
The horizon between the sun kissing the sea at sunrise and sunset

Those gentle kisses from time to time will no longer be yours.

Between you and me, there is a line in the sky
A skyline of fate
Fate brought us together through love, but
Fate and love are just colliding worlds
Our world is full of upheaval.

Like the ship and the sea,
They have one another
Like the sunrise and the sunset,
They are meant to be together.

Like the sailor and the lighthouse,
They need each other to guide and be guided

This kind of love is just a delusion of our dream.

How do I sail my ship without the captain?
Where should I anchor my ship, when there is no harbor to set up?
Which direction shall I sail, when I am losing my compass?
Who shall guide me home, when the lighthouse turns dark?
In the sea of despair, I whispered to you the king of my ocean.

You are far away to see
You are far away to call
You are far away to reach
You are way too far from my remembrance, but

You are too close to be forgotten
You are too close to be reached
You are too close to be touched
You are way too close to seeing me wail.

How cruel is fate between us?
The further I distance myself from you
The more destiny gathers us together
The more we experience our love
The more we hurt one another.

On the ocean of my emotion,
I plead to you
Captain of my horizon.

Allow me to see you from afar
Allow me to watch you from the sky
Allow me to hold you out of sight
Allow me to hear your voice beneath the sea
Allow me to sail your ship to my memory.

Between the steep rock,
I kiss your heart for the last time
It is arduous, it is painful… too painful to forget.

On the deck of this ship,
I pour our wine of love into the ocean, and
I sink deeper under the sea with you in me
Like the baby dolphin losing its mother,
I am drowning like a mermaid.

Between you and me,
There is a horizon of serpentine destiny,
Grievous love,shattered promises and endless desire.

May the waves and the ocean flood our love,but not our stories
May the wind calls you in the abbreviation of your name because
Your abbreviation is a name of love from me, and that wind is me.

Farewell, my love,
Your abbreviation is my horizon and keeps me sailing far from our love
Time will heal your loneliness, and I will resonate in your lonely ballads.

Debby J Tumanduk in Alanya, Turkey

Thank you all for taking the time reading my poem.

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Debby J Tumanduk

KLM Royal Dutch Airlines Agent ,photographer, and writer, based in the Netherlands.